During the many hours of introspection that I manage to put in during a normal day, I have constantly asked myself many questions ranging from the downright stupid to the very profound.
Here's one of those questions which fall somewhere in the middle of the spectrum - Who do I envy? I finally seem to have come up with some sort of an answer.
I envy two kinds of people -
1. People who know what they want to do in life:
I feel miserable when I see people going about doing things as if they were born to do it, as if there is nothing else in the world they'd want to do. They are people who are passionate about something and know what they want (and more importantly, what they don't want).
I, on the other hand, am not passionate about anything. I don't know what I want to achieve in life or where I'll be 3 years from now. I could end up being a politician or a traveller in the end and I wouldn't be surprised at all. There are some things which I like doing more that others and there are some things I consider myself to be good at. But none of these are things for which I'd leave everything tomorrow and pursue with single-minded determination. I'd be ruing the opportunities and experiences I'd be missing out on by sacrificing something.
2. People who have found love:
By love, I don't mean the love-thy-neighbour kind of broad idea of love; neither do I mean the narrow definition of making-love kind of love. You get the idea, right? Basically, people who have a boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife who they love (not including high-school crushes and unrequited loves). Even at the risk of sounding corny, I think that having somebody beside you whom you love and trust gives life a whole new meaning. Besides, sharing your life with a partner is the way to live life.
You may accuse me of being naive in assuming that such 'love' exists, and rightly so. But a person who has never known what it feels like to be in love always likes to believe that true love is just around the corner. When I see people who are supposedly in love, I feel as if I'm missing out on something which normal human beings should be experiencing.
So there you have it - I don't envy people with famous surnames or enormous bank balances. Neither do I envy film stars, rock stars or sports stars. What about you?
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